It is the middle of 2015 and I am in a new place in my life. Everyday is in some way but this time I am beyond the mountain that it felt like I was climbing and now I am walking gently down the other side. At Easter I stopped going to the same job that I and been going to for almost 19 years. A job I hadn’t wanted to do but was necessary to provide food and shelter for myself and my family. It became a habit of being to go beyond my innate desire everyday, finding myself always a place I didn’t want to be. I had become distressed in the two weeks before I found my way to stop….I considered my sleepless nights were the result of other sadnesses or difficulties of which there were some but in the end, it was this being in the wrong place for who I am that made all of life sadder and more difficult each day than it needed to be. So now there is a fancy name for my ‘symptoms’ but really I am reasonably sane so long as I stay in this new place and away from the old. There is no point in turing around and climbing back to where I have been. It would require energy that is no longer there and is not needed. I am venturing forward into a different and gentler life. I recently met a colleague in one of those, there must be someone in the universe scheduling my time moments, in his point of struggle. He asked a question about what was wrong with us that we both failed to be able to keep going doing what we were doing. My answer is simple. Nothing! Absolutely nothing is wrong with me. For the first time I have simply listened to my heart and let me have this time to become myself in a new and different place. I have been drawing my way here for several years now. By the observation of many I might not be entirely right but by my own self reflection. I am quietly fine. I know who i am and for the first time I know where my boundaries are and there is no need to cross them daily to do something that had begun to feels wrong to me. I outgrew my past life structure…..not in some expansion project, more like a simple reaction to living. So each day now, I still achieve meaning but none of it is measured in definite terms of output and time management. There is no justification for the minutes of my days and I am still creating and expressing my inner journey. Perhaps I even get to share it more now than before. My journey now is to find my new source of income so I can provide for my needs. My journey now is to live in a different way when I meet old scenarios. My journey now is to respect my boundaries and ensure others so too. My journey now is to simply live as the beautiful, creative, intelligent me that today I am. And see where I be….the view is rather nice from this place on the other side.