Drowning in paper, a myriad of pieces of white paper with lines on them….and an even bigger pile of them that are all coloured in with colours that reflect every mood that can be experienced I think! What to do with it all. I have coloured in with a lot of people over the past nine months. It is a frequent conversation, what do you do with your colouring ins. Still working not hat but I have an idea.

Anyway,This week in my world of colour I came up for a air. I had to I had stopped being able to finish a picture until I drew the picture!

Those of you that have met me know I draw as much as I talk so there is a fair chance that there is a lot of paper in my world. The thing is that in taking my pictures of my heart and life and opening them up for others to colour inside I had gotten distracted from the purpose of art and colour and lines in my life. So I painted which is the reverse experience of colouring in for me. I make the colours and then add the lines and in this case if you get too close you will see that the lines are  a little shaky cos I was finding my centre again. hence the circle. I think I am finding her because in the process of painting I have begun finding my story in lines again and drawing the moment. (Painting still to be completed but is in my mind light dancing)

I so love the feeling of drawing in the ‘zone’. It is the place that scientists have done tests to find out that colouring in leads people to. It has been my gift forever and I call it that. Others call it mindful moments, meditation, channelling. being zen….it is just is. I think after the past week I understand that i would most likely make a terrible graphic designer working on drawing racing cars. But thankfully I have not had to draw one of them this week. Doing the things i love bring me such joy and a feeling of rightness about life. It is why I have continued to host colouring in groups. I would like to think that others find that experience inside the moment of colouring too and over coffee and colouring in for grown ups something changes or appears that is good and right for them.

My ladies are very much the experience of my emotions of late. It always surprises me that people want to colour all my expressions of emotion and being not just the warm fuzzy ones. I gave up trying to draw anything that wasn’t true to me. I have tried. I was asked by a winery a little drive a way to draw images for them, I don’t call it a commission because no money has changed hands, but an opportunity that I hope will result in a little income for my time. I am continuing to find images for what they wanted but it takes time to focus on it this week. So I have done my version of procrastination and focussed on the piles of paper in my world instead of the task at hand….

Piles of paper have made me realise how many pieces of paper there are all around me. How many images of life are copied on to them and well….I have a life change coming most likely so maybe if I colour inside the lines I will figure out what that should be. Or Maybe I will just enjoy playing in my piles of paper a while longer and see what it turns into. Drowning might not be so bad….in fact it might just lead to the right thing.

My ladies will make it to colouring when they are cleaned up and scanned before I finish what i need them to be. Too many lines don’t leave room for other people. And colour is the thing!

Happy Day on your Journey to Beautiful you.

Sandy